Every dag brings new memories.. good and bad things that shape our lives and leave their traces.
With gain comes loss, every single experience, joy, sadness, anger or happiness, love and hate, is gone from us as soon as it had reached perfection.
The pain that comes with this realization is one unbearable. Often I think about all the things that have happened and even those things I once used to hate are now only a memory and will never be anything beyond that. And when I realise this I even yearn to go back in time and relive the same miserable life that I once used to hate.
The same amount of pain takes hold of me when I realize that tomorrow today will also be part of the past. And whether I show gratefulness for this day tomorrow I will wish I could go back even one day and set things straight.
I can’t imagine how great will be my regret when I realize I’m dying, and I will not be given another day to regret the past days. No, there will soon come a day when all hopes in a better me in the future will end. And I will be left to face the trials of my new life being the person I am on that day, a product of every single day of mine..
I realized however, that there’s actually no need to yearn back to days past. For if I obeyed Allah during those days, I will remember it on the day of judgment with great joy. In paradise I will tell others about it, and maybe even experience the same things and feel the same way only much much better and so much more intense.
As for bad days, they will be a source of sadness, as they were in this world a burden on my heart they will burden me on the day of judgment. So what is the use of yearning for those days, when they have given me no good. And how great would it be if I could repent to Allah and add to my scale of good news? I would have gained a great deal from such a tiny loss. What has he lost who has found Allah? And what has he found who has lost Allah?
1. By Al-‘Asr (the time).
2. Verily! Man is in loss,
3. Except those who believe and do righteous good deeds, and recommend one another to the truth, and recommend one another to patience.